So it's been a while since my last blog thing, but I'm really frustrated about something. So as some of you know, if one is to ask me how I'm doing, I'm most likely to say, "I'm fine" or "I'm well" or "I'm okay" or "I'm all right," because that's just how I am... I mean, if I were fantastic or having such a wonderful day I'd say it, but since I hardly, if ever, have any of those days, I just don't say it, and even if I do have a great day, I say in a more upbeat tone, "I'm doing well" because I am. I'm not going to describe my mood with an adjective because that's just wrong, so I say the usual. But, for some reason, for the past couple of weeks, when I've given my usual response, someone will invariably go, "Oh, I'm sorry" or "Why not fantastic?" or they'll say things like I'm suppose to feel bad about not expressing myself like they do and I'm sick of it. I've had enough and so I'm asking people to just stop expecting me to change for someone and say, "Well I'm just doing fantastic!" when I'm not, or if I am, I'm still not saying that. That's not who I am and I shouldn't have to mask how I'm feeling for the benefit of someone else. I'm sorry, but I'm not, because then I'd be lying and not being myself and the vicious cycle continues. My family is the same way I am and we're laid back and if we're fine, we really are. Maybe it's because my dad died when I was fifteen and God, I know that was only eight years ago, but after he died life was just... different, imagine that. All I'm trying to say is... this is who I am, so let me be me.

(*Note* This is very work related and if any one has any questions about this, I shall explain it further.)